"The people who survived the wars have found favor in the desert. The LORD appeared to me in a faraway place and said, “I love you with an everlasting love. So I will continue to show you my kindness. Once again I will build you up, and you will be rebuilt, my dear people Israel. Once again you will take your tambourines, and you will go dancing with happy people. Once again you will plant..."
As I watched the calendar days quickly slip by tomorrows date approach I have to admit that I have become a little anxious.These past couple of weeks have been so incredibly difficult that instead of bravery I have been struggling with some cautious fear. The verses above from Jeremiah 31:2-5 have brought great comfort to my heart. Truly the Lord appears to us in "faraway places" and in the desert times. And yet, I admit that I feel that my typical brave spirit was wounded.
And yet today is upon us and tomorrow will arrive. These days that call us to trust the Lord in new ways, to ask for mercy and grace, to once again pray through scripture for healing, and trust this day, like every other to the one who holds our future.
As I mentioned on instagram yesterday I had to go to the hospital because I have been unable to keep food and liquids in me. We believe this is simply due to a reaction from the precursor cocktail but these past two weeks (plus the cruise) have completely worn my body out so I am anxious and nervous about our long travel tomorrow to California and for the upcoming days and I would definitely appreciate prayers. I truly have never felt so weak and am so grateful that the Lord is our complete strength. I also am continuing to struggle with intense pain in one area and would appreciate prayers for this also. I ask for prayers for peace, for strength for the days ahead (not just for these antibiotics, but for strength to finish packing for travel on Sunday out to California), and grace to meet the unknown that lies ahead. I appreciate your prayers for all of this.
As I mentioned in my last Notes from the Porch update, these next weeks will be very intense. On Monday I will have the PICC line inserted (which will be a little complicated due to my difficulty with handling anethesia) and Tuesday will begin the IV treatment after meeting with my medical team. Words can't express how grateful I am for all of your kind support and love during this time. I am not sure how often I will be able to update on the blog in the next two weeks but will be updating on instagram if you would like to follow along there. Thank you again for all of your support, love, and prayers. You are a blessing!