"In my distress I called to the Lord; I cried to my God for help.
He reached down from on high and took hold of me; He drew me out of deep waters...my God turns my darkness into light."
As some of you may have seen on my intstagram page, I shared on Wednesday that I have been struggling with extreme pain everyday that seems to have started with a treatment that I began in the beginning of August. Over the past seven weeks I have had numerous testing done to determine the cause of the pain and at this point things are a bit of a mystery. Unfortunately in this journey with Lyme these things can happen, and sometimes a determined treatment plan brings these detours and yet I am humbly coming before you, my dear prayer warriors and friends to ask for God's mercy and healing in this area. The pain is extreme, none of my typical "pain remedies" have helped, it has kept me from getting much needed rest and sleep, has delayed further treatment plans, is quite nerve-racking and can become more and less intense throughout the day without a known trigger or warning. I admit that there has been a lot of tears.
I asked for prayer as I was talking with several of my medical team members were trying to work on some solutions.
I was so grateful to each of you that have been praying, sent sweet messages, and left such compassionate comments on my post on IG. Most of all thank you for your prayers. I spoke with my main medical doctor yesterday who sweetly called to discuss a few things.
At this point the decision has been made to halt some of the main treatments that I have been doing, delay the upcoming treatment round, do some additional testing, and add in a few different things to try to help calm down the extreme pain that I have been experiencing. I so appreciate my main medical team who is always working so hard, the way that they listen and discuss my treatment plan along with my heart, and the encouragement that they are in this very long journey.
I also so appreciate your continued prayers for many different things, including a decrease in pain. My treatment plan for the next month has now radically changed and this delay is very discouraging and disappointing to my little heart. As with other times in this Lyme journey the tears of frustration flow freely.
So last night as I watched the way the seasons are gently changing I am reminded that the God who controls the seasons is still in control of even this. And tonight I humbly rest on God's unchanging grace and the beautiful promise from Isaiah 25:9:
"On that day it will be said, Look, this is our God; we have waited for Him, and He has saved us. This is the LORD; we have waited for Him. Let us rejoice and be glad in His salvation."