"The people who survived the wars have found favor in the desert. The LORD appeared to me in a faraway place and said, “I love you with an everlasting love. So I will continue to show you my kindness. Once again I will build you up, and you will be rebuilt, my dear people Israel. Once again you will take your tambourines, and you will go dancing with happy people. Once again you will plant..."
As I watched the calendar days slowly slip by and May fade into June I have to admit that I became a little apprehensive. May was so incredibly difficult with the herx/crash that instead of the bravery I was feeling six weeks ago with this new plan, I had instead emerged from May and approached June with a cautious fear. The verses above from Jeremiah 31:2-5 have brought great comfort to my heart. Truly the Lord appears to us in "faraway places" and in the desert times. And yet, I admit that I feel that my typical brave spirit was wounded.
And yet today is upon us. Today that calls us to trust the Lord in new ways, to ask for mercy and grace, to once again pray through scripture for healing, and trust this day, like every other to the one who holds our future.
As I mentioned on instagram earlier this morning, today I begin some new antibiotic drug treatment as part of a "precursor cocktail" for my upcoming treatment that will start in California next week. After this past month being so incredibly difficult (and still struggling from symptoms of nausea/dizziness/vertigo) I am anxious and nervous and I would definitely appreciate prayers. I ask for prayers for peace, for strength for the days ahead (not just for these antibiotics, but for strength to finish packing and for travel on Sunday out to California), and grace to meet the unknown that lies ahead. I appreciate your prayers for all of this.
As I mentioned in my last Notes from the Porch update, these next weeks will be very intense. Our specific prayer request for the beginning of the shot treatment is still the same - that I would be able to handle the first round dose of shots with no severe reaction. This shot would allow me to only have one shot once a week for 10 weeks. But if this doesn't work and I have a severe reaction then I will be heading back in for a different shot on Tuesday which is "less strong" and would require me to have shots four times a week for six months. If that doesn't work I will continue each day to see if another type of shot will work but it would be a much longer time frame. Yikes! From all of my research and my understanding, the first option is a better choice for many different ways, and so that is what we are asking specific prayers for.
Words can't express how grateful I am for all of your kind support and love during this time. I am not sure how often I will be able to update on the blog in the next week and a half but will be updating on instagram if you would like to follow along there. Thank you again for all of your support, love, and prayers. You are a blessing!